Happy Birthday to me!

This baker had to bake her own birthday cake!
Not sure if it's a gift or a curse or both. I don't get a birthday cake, I am always expected to make one for myself this past few years. reason being, why give a baker a cake when she can make better cakes.

Not sure if i should feel insulted or proud that some people think I can bake better ones than the commercial ones (not including hotel type cakes or even Secret Recipe). So you can forget me for even asking for someone to GIVE me on because the answer would be "Why?".

Not that I don't appreciate that there are people who actually DO like the cakes I make but they don't get it. Do you? You don't? Does the word "appreciate" strike any meaning. I doubt. I would for sure be accused of fussy, will be disappointed with store bought cakes etc.

Despite, it still hurts knowing that I probably would never receive one since several years ago and years from now.

So this picture is the picture of this year's birthday cake to myself by myself. I bought a checker board cake pan from Wilton. I have been wanting to try it so this would be a good occasion. As well, promote it to my customers....hopefully.

I wanted to post a picture of the piece I cut but somehow clicking "Add Image" doesn't seem to be working. I dunno. So if you can imagine, it's just a simple buttercake with three colors, orange, green and yellow iced with White Chocolate Buttercream. This is the first time I tried doing a white chocolate flavored buttercream. A tad too sweet though. I also bought this cool gold and pearl-like colored dragees and decided to pour them all over the top instead of the sides. Looks a little extinguished, huh. ;)

Oh well...here goes...
"Happy birthday to me...."
"Happy birthday to me...."
.................. but I still had to be grateful to be able to have shared this with my family.

Untill next year.....

Another Blue Love Cake

The Second Blue Love Cake

The first blue love cake garnered a lot of positive feedback so much so my old time schoolmate said she wanted the same one for her anniversary. Months and months later she asked for a "blue love cake", as she termed , for her brother's wedding cake.

Although I don't like to replicate my designs, so i sketched many many designs but somehow on the day i made this, the ones i had pictured in mind didn't came out as good and i found myself lost for ideas and pressing for time. So I resorted to the simplest form , even then it grew by itself and this was the end result.

I checked and checked and looked at it many time trying to convince myself that's it's ok considering the budget. But I was very angry with myself with this one. It insults my creative ability. I should have come up with something better. This looked too amateur even for the likes of me. I was angry...very angry with myself.


Well, this is my friend, Rahayu from high school days. But at the very least the colors all blend in with the whole set up so the focus is well distributed. Any flaws in disappointment would pale a little considering the whole table ensemble.

Thanks Ayu but I hope I can do a much much better work for you some day. God bless you.

Qaf and Nat's Wedding Gift

My brother-in law got hitched early June and as a norm my gift is usually a cake for the hantaran. I dare not risk again another tiered cake coz my first attempt literally melted! I transported the cake all well and good from KL to Taiping. It survived till the nite before the ceremony and I decorated it then. Luckly i managed to take pictures of it BEFORE it tragically melted. I was soo eager to have it displayed on the main table but i suppose that's where my real mistake was.

Besides being in the dampest place in Malaysia, the conditions were not favourable for fondant. But my sister in-law, had to make one this time around and the cake didn't fall the same fate. And I couldn't come up with the reasons, too much or not enough icing sugar, kneading..?? What? What? Only now I came to realize maybe my eagerness have taken the best of me , to display my pride. So I could be complimented upon, so that i could be seen as great. Maybe that was the factor...the higher being reminds me who is great and all my eagerness for wanting to be seen as good have blinded me.

How all this fit in a cake? I don't know. All I can say is, sorry Qaf. I didn't make you a wedding cake as I did your brother. Despite then I was a newbie, this experience have taught me a good deal. Without sincerity in our work, there will be unfavourable consequences.

Selamat Pengantin Baru, Qaf and Nat.

Sesma 1988

My friend ordered this for her husband's high school reunion in Cherating last month. Well, nothing to shout about coz using edible logos, this is what i normally would present them, on a biscuit so the logo could stand upright a little. Sesma is short for S M S Tengku Mahmud, Kuala Terengganu. Thanks for your order Ina.